I usually don’t care much when a celebrity dies, but wow - George Carlin. I hope he’s found something beautiful on the other side.
I usually don’t care much when a celebrity dies, but wow - George Carlin. I hope he’s found something beautiful on the other side.
(Previously private - reopened.)
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My Uncle Donnie - my mom’s baby brother - is dying.
He had been having back problems for a long time and had just been dealing with it and taking pain medication. We thought he just had a slipped disc or something, but turns out it’s tumors pushing on his spine.
The cancer is so advanced that there’s little chance he’ll make it. He’s dealing with it well, with good humor and acceptance. But me? Not so much. He’s one of the most amazing people I’ve ever known, and I regret not cultivating our relationship more. It’s my loss.
Plus, he’s only 46, and he’s my mom’s little brother. Mom’s parents both died in their sixties, and Mom’s now 56. I’m not even ready to think about the possibility…
And I’m thinking more than ever about how short my own life is, and how every day is filled with choices. Every day ended is one less day on this planet, and every day we don’t have the courage to stand up and do what we know is right - that’s one more lost day.
What a scary f*cking thought.
Donnie has lived outside mainstream society for most of his life. He made choices that people didn’t understand, and he didn’t let their lack of understanding hinder his journey. He cultivated an inner life that reached a depth and height that most people don’t even have the balls to dream of.
And now he’s facing his death with such dignity. These facts are connected, and I think when I am able to fully realize that, I will never be or live the same.
Things are bad, but frankly I am too mentally and emotionally exhausted to talk about it. So instead, you get a cute AB story and two links.
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Cute AB Story: in which our adorable little heroine makes a connection about waitresses…
So, we’re eating at Ruby Tuesday, just me and AB.
AB: You drinked all your tea.
Mommy: Yes, I drank all my tea.
AB, suddenly inspired: Hey! That lady can bring you more!
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And two links for your brain:
AB: *playing with her duplos* I made a castle!
Mommy: What a beautiful castle! Can you make it taller?
AB: *thinks a moment, then brightens* Yeah! I make it taller! *picks it up and holds it over her head*
:P Once again, the child-mind wins at life.
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Bonus AB-ism: We’ve recently begun eschewing traditional pajamas in favor of nightgowns, which AB loves. She calls them her “night-night gowns.”
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